U-Turn in life

Back to the church thing I go, nothing makes sense, nothing takes me anywhere.
The people that are brought into my life are usually very needy, and, when I try to help them, I see no results, only f
feel totally used up by them. When they are normal, fun, types of people, whom I really enjoy being around, they are from far off places who I dont get to see much of. I am blessed to have those few people in my life, but, it gets pretty lonely out here, my alien space is a far distant place which I dont even recognize anylonger.

Going back to church is somewhat helpfull, but, I just always feel like these are people who have their life together, who dont have time to be with me. I dont want to be a needy person in their lives....
Being adopted, being told I was special all my life by my mother, but my life has been anything but special that is forsure! More like a soap opera that dont stop....

I had a dream last night, I saw the man of my dreams...but...of course, he was married....sigh....

always....there for someone else....

U Turn in Life