Unfinished business

question.....how the heck does a person keep lips from becoming chapped!
I have used EVERY type of lip balm this week, and my lips are sooooo chapped!!!!!



ok, now...done ranting, about lips...maybe they need a tender kiss. Its been so very long....

In my privious post, I was trying to find finis to my marrage, my ex, make it my past. Which, I had thought was done, gone, over. But, all at once, a surprise of
excitement, joy, and exuberance came along after seeing my ex for the first time in 6 years. I thought I was on the road to recovery of the past 4 years, with feeling better, emotionally, and physically. My past year has been one of the most painfull. Now, Im seeing, it has been the accumulation of the past 53 years, not being dealt with unfinished business, but, how, do I finish it since most of them are dead, or, gone out of my life?

It is now, I have to start completely over.
I have my live in partner, but, we have NO relationship, emotionally I feel nothing for him, other than, love for what he has gone thru, seeing the pain he has lived with all of these years, and knowing he is still a good person!
He is so full of pain, of past regrets, but cant face them, because he is scared.
Scared to face all the pain?
Scared to face all the emotion of others who have been hurt by him?
He was down and out when I took him in, and, of course, I was desperate, for, help with the restraunt. I didnt want to be desperate, but, they had lied to me in Harper, telling me I could find plenty of good help. WRONG!
It took me almost a year to find decent, trustworthy help. Before that, I had been
lied to, ripped off, and, barely hanging in there.
He had been sober for supposedly 4 years, and, then, we met. I believed him, I thuoght he was honest, and, felt, it would be good help for me.
Something had happened to him, he started drinking again, or, so he said.....again..had he actually quit before meeting me? OR WAS I LIED TO AGAIN?

I am so desperate for friends, and help, that I accept everyone on their word....
believing they mean what they say....
HOW FUCKING STUPID CAN I BE????????

Why can no one be trusted anymore?