we will see!
I shutter everytime they say, new and improved....it normlly means, its over my head...and
i wont be able to figure it out.
Im still having problems ith my keyboard, not keeping up with my speed of typing, so,lots of back spaces and editing GRRRRR
so..ok what is new, and better?
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Make me an instrument of YOUR PEACE
for so manyyears my life hs been such a screwed up mess.
I have finally had my Faith Lifted ....... I haven posted for a long while...but no one seems to read ths anyway so, ill just keep writing to no one....
It has been a long month, but a productive one....
Before Christmas I had met a girl online from Ghana, a refugee from Liberia, who, (seemed strange for her to be online) but, she claimed she cleaned and did washing for some people in her village who owned a cyber cafe in the refugee camp (unlike our cyber cafe's) but set up for people to keep in touch with the world.
As the days went by her story just tore my heart out, 3 small boys, twins of her own, and one she had adopted whose parents had died, her husband had died of malaria.
I checked out the refugee camp sights online, and, started praying and asking Jesus if she was real, and not a scam artist, to show me how to help her.
After all, who can turn down a mothers cries that she has no food to feed her children?
no water unless they buy it by the gallon, and no way to make a livnig other than washing clothes for a little bit of food for her chilldren.
Christmas was coming, Partner went on a binge, I was with out any money, but, I prayed if she was real, for Jesus to sustain her, and give her peace in her life, and to show me how to help her, and bring the money to me to help her.
With in a couple of weeks, the idea was brought to me to buy her a sewing machine that runs with out electricity, and asked her how much it would cost for her to buy one over there.
She said, something like 4524395768304.00 Cedi....well....i laughed and thought holy cow, no way i can come up that much money....but, prayed about it anyway....
Some one left an envelope in my mail box at the church in it was 50.00 anonymously ....before christmas...
then, the church takes up a staff gift and splits it between the 9 staff members, my share was 28.00, so, i just kept praying.
and everytime i cash my pay check i always take out 10.00 for little things i mght need during the pay period, and as I break it, i drop the change in my purse...etc...
I went to Wally world to ask how much it was going to cost to send 100.00 to Ghana it was 9. 46, so, i went home, took out the 78.00 that i knew I had, and, prayed the rest would show up.
I emptied out my purse, finding a bank envelope with 10.00 , a few 1.00, then a 20.00!!!
all done I counted what I had and I had 111.00!!!!!!
I hurried back to Wally world and got the paper work to send the money over to her, and, yesterday I got word back from her
she was able to get 1 sewing machine, some material, scissors, thread and needles!!!!! and TWO WEEKS Worth of food for her boys!!!! PRAISE JESUS!!!!!
I was on cloud 9 all day, its such a rush to see a miracle work!!!!
I wanted to tell everyone....
The least excited when I told him was my minister-boss! IT made me sad, but didnt steal my excitement and praise for Jesus....
I have had so many losses 4 inaws in wreck, husband from early teen age marraige. beloved myhusband whom I loved with all my heart both parents, a grandchild, two siblings, two foster children, three businesses, my credit, and, the love of my life, and relationships, as Partner was driving me nuts, job-people are selfish, and uncaring, or, more like two faced....
and, i was doubting if Jesus was even there....
Oh my cries at night, my fears, my angers, my worries, my lack of joy, and depression, my whole world had been shattered, and dumped to the ground, nothing made sense, nothing worked, nothing was there to hold on to, except, hoping the stories of Jesus were true. I had only had them as a child,
and so many unanswered prayers the past 30 years, especially the last 10 years and even worse the last 6 years.....
I was really starting to doubt that I knew God, as I should..... was he even hearing my prayers? I didnt want to ask God why, but, What was I not learning, not paying attention to, what could I do to make things different in my life, I loved Jesus, I wanted to be more like Him, I begged him for his mercies, and asked him to show me how to love those who were hurting me, and asked him help me love my husband thru his eyes,which he dd many times, but, for what ever reason,
we just couldnt make it work...I ended up loosin mybusiness, taking in adrunk (didnt know hw ewas a drunk) I didnt understand the disease.....the drunk came in to help me with my business. We did great until 911, thngs started going down aat a fast speed.
I couldnt keep up with anything durng that time, loose after loss i was barely hanginng on for dear life..
I asked for forgiveness of al my sins, and, asked for a new start...
what a Ride!
Things are finall starting to turn around, and maybe time, I can make sense of why things have happened, and ho NOT to make the same mistakes, over and over again...
anyway, He gave me the money to get her a way of life.
It doesnt even matter to me if she wasnt real, but, I have to believe she was.
So many "men" have taken advantage of me, and I have lost so much. If I cant help another woman get on her feet, even If I havent been able to do it on my own, then, I am so glad I have been patient, but going crazy....
I have finally had my Faith Lifted ....... I haven posted for a long while...but no one seems to read ths anyway so, ill just keep writing to no one....
It has been a long month, but a productive one....
Before Christmas I had met a girl online from Ghana, a refugee from Liberia, who, (seemed strange for her to be online) but, she claimed she cleaned and did washing for some people in her village who owned a cyber cafe in the refugee camp (unlike our cyber cafe's) but set up for people to keep in touch with the world.
As the days went by her story just tore my heart out, 3 small boys, twins of her own, and one she had adopted whose parents had died, her husband had died of malaria.
I checked out the refugee camp sights online, and, started praying and asking Jesus if she was real, and not a scam artist, to show me how to help her.
After all, who can turn down a mothers cries that she has no food to feed her children?
no water unless they buy it by the gallon, and no way to make a livnig other than washing clothes for a little bit of food for her chilldren.
Christmas was coming, Partner went on a binge, I was with out any money, but, I prayed if she was real, for Jesus to sustain her, and give her peace in her life, and to show me how to help her, and bring the money to me to help her.
With in a couple of weeks, the idea was brought to me to buy her a sewing machine that runs with out electricity, and asked her how much it would cost for her to buy one over there.
She said, something like 4524395768304.00 Cedi....well....i laughed and thought holy cow, no way i can come up that much money....but, prayed about it anyway....
Some one left an envelope in my mail box at the church in it was 50.00 anonymously ....before christmas...
then, the church takes up a staff gift and splits it between the 9 staff members, my share was 28.00, so, i just kept praying.
and everytime i cash my pay check i always take out 10.00 for little things i mght need during the pay period, and as I break it, i drop the change in my purse...etc...
I went to Wally world to ask how much it was going to cost to send 100.00 to Ghana it was 9. 46, so, i went home, took out the 78.00 that i knew I had, and, prayed the rest would show up.
I emptied out my purse, finding a bank envelope with 10.00 , a few 1.00, then a 20.00!!!
all done I counted what I had and I had 111.00!!!!!!
I hurried back to Wally world and got the paper work to send the money over to her, and, yesterday I got word back from her
she was able to get 1 sewing machine, some material, scissors, thread and needles!!!!! and TWO WEEKS Worth of food for her boys!!!! PRAISE JESUS!!!!!
I was on cloud 9 all day, its such a rush to see a miracle work!!!!
I wanted to tell everyone....
The least excited when I told him was my minister-boss! IT made me sad, but didnt steal my excitement and praise for Jesus....
I have had so many losses 4 inaws in wreck, husband from early teen age marraige. beloved myhusband whom I loved with all my heart both parents, a grandchild, two siblings, two foster children, three businesses, my credit, and, the love of my life, and relationships, as Partner was driving me nuts, job-people are selfish, and uncaring, or, more like two faced....
and, i was doubting if Jesus was even there....
Oh my cries at night, my fears, my angers, my worries, my lack of joy, and depression, my whole world had been shattered, and dumped to the ground, nothing made sense, nothing worked, nothing was there to hold on to, except, hoping the stories of Jesus were true. I had only had them as a child,
and so many unanswered prayers the past 30 years, especially the last 10 years and even worse the last 6 years.....
I was really starting to doubt that I knew God, as I should..... was he even hearing my prayers? I didnt want to ask God why, but, What was I not learning, not paying attention to, what could I do to make things different in my life, I loved Jesus, I wanted to be more like Him, I begged him for his mercies, and asked him to show me how to love those who were hurting me, and asked him help me love my husband thru his eyes,which he dd many times, but, for what ever reason,
we just couldnt make it work...I ended up loosin mybusiness, taking in adrunk (didnt know hw ewas a drunk) I didnt understand the disease.....the drunk came in to help me with my business. We did great until 911, thngs started going down aat a fast speed.
I couldnt keep up with anything durng that time, loose after loss i was barely hanginng on for dear life..
I asked for forgiveness of al my sins, and, asked for a new start...
what a Ride!
Things are finall starting to turn around, and maybe time, I can make sense of why things have happened, and ho NOT to make the same mistakes, over and over again...
anyway, He gave me the money to get her a way of life.
It doesnt even matter to me if she wasnt real, but, I have to believe she was.
So many "men" have taken advantage of me, and I have lost so much. If I cant help another woman get on her feet, even If I havent been able to do it on my own, then, I am so glad I have been patient, but going crazy....
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Interesting clock
It has been almost a month since I posted, so many amazing things have happened, but, one is
a new Friend, Richard "Lee" Thank you for coming into my life!
he has some awesome pictures, check em out here... photobird.com/zoomsnap4him
Also, a new Sister in Christ, Vicki I will write about Vicki's world, soon, but for now..here is
a website of just a small part of her world....it doesn talk about the hunger, the lack of clean water, or, lack of sanitation, and bathrooms!
Vicki, God Bless you and your children!
http://www.volunteer.org.nz/ghana/refugeecamp/
http://www.globalvoicesonline.org/2005/07/22/ghana-life-in-a-liberian-refugee-camp-2/
a new Friend, Richard "Lee" Thank you for coming into my life!
he has some awesome pictures, check em out here... photobird.com/zoomsnap4him
Also, a new Sister in Christ, Vicki I will write about Vicki's world, soon, but for now..here is
a website of just a small part of her world....it doesn talk about the hunger, the lack of clean water, or, lack of sanitation, and bathrooms!
Vicki, God Bless you and your children!
http://www.volunteer.org.nz/ghana/refugeecamp/
http://www.globalvoicesonline.org/2005/07/22/ghana-life-in-a-liberian-refugee-camp-2/
Sunday, December 31, 2006
HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2007
The new year is officially here, 2007, and, so far, so good!
no major problems in my life! YE-HA!
I have not posted much lately, since upgrading to the new IE7 it is difficult to type, at such a slow speed, and I dont know how to change the settings.
If anyone can enlighten me why it types so slow now, please let me know what I need to do
other wise my print will look like this, if, i dont go back and edit it.
It just makes me so issedoffhtat i cant get it strathgitned ou, and, it si a maesss a s yu ca n see.
why does it do this?
I have a new grandbaby coming in August, it might be a multiple birth, we will find out on Wednesday.! WOW.....im so happy my Grandaughter Jessi wont be an only child as I was.
My best Friend Cyn, is still not talking to me this is rediculous we are grown adults, but, for whtever reason, she has cutme off and it still hurts, majorly! I hope, in this new year, we can
heal the wounds, and make amends and become friends again....
My live-in partner is doing so much better, and, I know he will just keep getting better..
I have a new friend in Ghana, a refuge, who, is struggling to feed her three boys. She goes to do laundry for a cafe owner who has aa computer that he allows her to use.
I pray for her daily, and hope and pray something will happen to turn her life around...
I love my job, and, the live-in, is, going for an interview for the railroad, oh, I hope he gets thatjob!
Well....life is so much better than it was in July-August, I really didnt think I was going to live thru the hell we were living in at that time, Thank youLord for His mercies this year.
My prayer for this new year, is that I will no longer be full of ampathy, but empathy for my brothers and sisters, that my passion will grow to a passionate vision of hope
that we will see our tomorrows and bring the peace upon the hearts of the world.
Our children will become open to the HolySpirit, and not walk into the darkness...
The war in Iraq can fall into quiet peace, the men and women will walk in Peace towards each ther instead of death and difiance against one another.
Finding a peace that they never expected..
In the days before us, we will rejoyce instead of sorro, and the lonely can be loved and fullfilled
Giving our lives to walk in Jesus' footsteps, and, know Gods love wholly and holiness!
Happy New Year....
no major problems in my life! YE-HA!
I have not posted much lately, since upgrading to the new IE7 it is difficult to type, at such a slow speed, and I dont know how to change the settings.
If anyone can enlighten me why it types so slow now, please let me know what I need to do
other wise my print will look like this, if, i dont go back and edit it.
It just makes me so issedoffhtat i cant get it strathgitned ou, and, it si a maesss a s yu ca n see.
why does it do this?
I have a new grandbaby coming in August, it might be a multiple birth, we will find out on Wednesday.! WOW.....im so happy my Grandaughter Jessi wont be an only child as I was.
My best Friend Cyn, is still not talking to me this is rediculous we are grown adults, but, for whtever reason, she has cutme off and it still hurts, majorly! I hope, in this new year, we can
heal the wounds, and make amends and become friends again....
My live-in partner is doing so much better, and, I know he will just keep getting better..
I have a new friend in Ghana, a refuge, who, is struggling to feed her three boys. She goes to do laundry for a cafe owner who has aa computer that he allows her to use.
I pray for her daily, and hope and pray something will happen to turn her life around...
I love my job, and, the live-in, is, going for an interview for the railroad, oh, I hope he gets thatjob!
Well....life is so much better than it was in July-August, I really didnt think I was going to live thru the hell we were living in at that time, Thank youLord for His mercies this year.
My prayer for this new year, is that I will no longer be full of ampathy, but empathy for my brothers and sisters, that my passion will grow to a passionate vision of hope
that we will see our tomorrows and bring the peace upon the hearts of the world.
Our children will become open to the HolySpirit, and not walk into the darkness...
The war in Iraq can fall into quiet peace, the men and women will walk in Peace towards each ther instead of death and difiance against one another.
Finding a peace that they never expected..
In the days before us, we will rejoyce instead of sorro, and the lonely can be loved and fullfilled
Giving our lives to walk in Jesus' footsteps, and, know Gods love wholly and holiness!
Happy New Year....
Friday, December 22, 2006
Thinking abut getting married? Think about it.....
35 years ago today Dec. 22, 1969. I got married at age 17....In love with love...Too proud to back away once I realized it was going to be a mistake. Back then....Girls didn't move out to live alone...
and...I didn't have plans to go to collage, no one in my family ever had gone..I didn't have a clue ever where to start....
these are a few of the lessons I Have learned in two marriages, and, a live in partner....
hope it helps someone from making the same mistake I made 35 years ago...
I wish someone would have given me these things to think about....Not sure If I would have been able to really comprehend them, but...Something in side of me wishes someone would have cared enough to talk to me about why I ws getting married so young!
if a guy doesn't treat you good before marriage, he AINT going to change the day you say I DO!
don't rely on any man to make you happy
and don't rely on any man to keep you warm, and fed.
Unless. HE has given you these things before your married, he will NOT change the day you marry him!
don't settle for less....
because the day you marry he is not going to have a light come on and say, I am going to fill every need from this day forward.
If he doesn't fill your needs now...He WONT do it the day after you say I DO....
don't be in love with love just because everyone else is....Or...Because your afraid of being alone...
if you don't know who YOU ARE before you say I DO
once you have another lug to pull around, and kids in tow..You WONT HAVE THE TIME to find out who you are until, your alone again!
Everyone woman has a purpose, we have been taught that the men had more purpose in life than women, but, that is such a lie!
Find your path, and take it, in that, your true joys will come, and your true love will show....
I have come full circle, with in living 5 houses from where I lived before getting married all those years ago. This time, no parents to keep me in line, or have to answer to, and no one to help me out when I fall down.
Ihave to become that independent person, Ialways wanted to be. But...how...
I have tried and tried to find that path, but, it sees to be so illusive
and...I didn't have plans to go to collage, no one in my family ever had gone..I didn't have a clue ever where to start....
these are a few of the lessons I Have learned in two marriages, and, a live in partner....
hope it helps someone from making the same mistake I made 35 years ago...
I wish someone would have given me these things to think about....Not sure If I would have been able to really comprehend them, but...Something in side of me wishes someone would have cared enough to talk to me about why I ws getting married so young!
if a guy doesn't treat you good before marriage, he AINT going to change the day you say I DO!
don't rely on any man to make you happy
and don't rely on any man to keep you warm, and fed.
Unless. HE has given you these things before your married, he will NOT change the day you marry him!
don't settle for less....
because the day you marry he is not going to have a light come on and say, I am going to fill every need from this day forward.
If he doesn't fill your needs now...He WONT do it the day after you say I DO....
don't be in love with love just because everyone else is....Or...Because your afraid of being alone...
if you don't know who YOU ARE before you say I DO
once you have another lug to pull around, and kids in tow..You WONT HAVE THE TIME to find out who you are until, your alone again!
Everyone woman has a purpose, we have been taught that the men had more purpose in life than women, but, that is such a lie!
Find your path, and take it, in that, your true joys will come, and your true love will show....
I have come full circle, with in living 5 houses from where I lived before getting married all those years ago. This time, no parents to keep me in line, or have to answer to, and no one to help me out when I fall down.
Ihave to become that independent person, Ialways wanted to be. But...how...
I have tried and tried to find that path, but, it sees to be so illusive
Monday, December 18, 2006
What car are you? take the test <
I'm a Chevrolet Corvette!
You're a classic - powerful, athletic, and competitive. You're all about winning the race and getting the job done. While you have a practical everyday side, you get wild when anyone pushes your pedal. You hate to lose, but you hardly ever do.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
The Lost Room
Is anyone watchin?
wow, is it going to be the next reality show?
get the key, and go for it?
kind of what is behind door number 7
pretty intertaining stuff.
Are you going to play the text game worth 5milllion??
wow, is it going to be the next reality show?
get the key, and go for it?
kind of what is behind door number 7
pretty intertaining stuff.
Are you going to play the text game worth 5milllion??
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