What is the meaning of it .....life....why....how...when....

How is it that life just seems to be....
nothing less, nothing more...
does anyone else feel as tho their life has been meaningless, and empty?
I have tried to live a purpose filled life, but.... forgive me Lord, for I cannot see....
forgive me Lord, for I cannot hear...

Having my ex come back into my life after a 10 year vacation from each other was/has been a wonderful experience...but...what is the purpose?
What is the meaning of it all?

My partner of 7 1/2 years, left to go to Washington State to get into a year long program for addicts, and the weekend before he was to be entered into the program his sister is killed in a motorcycle accident...what is the purpose of it....
what is the reason for living...
why...do we have to have so many bad things happen....

what is all of the chaos in our life all about?

I came to bring peace, and love and acceptance, but have only seen pain, missery and ......


Days go by so fast, from one paycheck to the next, never getting any further ahead... never finding a way out of the town i grew up in. Never seeing the dreams or hopes fullfilled..

People like Oprah say we make our own destiny...that is full BULLSHIT...

Would someone please tell me...why...how...when....

I have always believed in the reasoning things happen for a reason, God has a plan, life has meaning, but the older i get the less i can hang on to those believes....and, it saddens me to think perhaps, its just all bogus...

one big lie?

Have I lived a lie all my life
full of deceptions and fake meanings...?

is anyone out there?
oh how i wish, i could make contact....

im so tired of feeling like an alien...