who to rely on....

Im so fucking depressed, and i try to talk to people about it, just hoping someone will say they will pray for me, do i HAVE TO ASK FOR PRAYER ALL THE TIME?


Why does life never get any better?
What am I doing wrong?
I have gone full circle in life, living back with in 5 houses of where i grew up and where my life seemed to turn to hell.....

being dependent on parents, then husbands, now, no one, no credit card, no credit, nothing to fall back on, no friends who really care,
im alone, no one, but a drunk who cant keep a job.....
and, what do i do?

tell me! no one else will.....