we will see!
I shutter everytime they say, new and improved....it normlly means, its over my head...and
i wont be able to figure it out.
Im still having problems ith my keyboard, not keeping up with my speed of typing, so,lots of back spaces and editing GRRRRR
so..ok what is new, and better?
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Make me an instrument of YOUR PEACE
for so manyyears my life hs been such a screwed up mess.
I have finally had my Faith Lifted ....... I haven posted for a long while...but no one seems to read ths anyway so, ill just keep writing to no one....
It has been a long month, but a productive one....
Before Christmas I had met a girl online from Ghana, a refugee from Liberia, who, (seemed strange for her to be online) but, she claimed she cleaned and did washing for some people in her village who owned a cyber cafe in the refugee camp (unlike our cyber cafe's) but set up for people to keep in touch with the world.
As the days went by her story just tore my heart out, 3 small boys, twins of her own, and one she had adopted whose parents had died, her husband had died of malaria.
I checked out the refugee camp sights online, and, started praying and asking Jesus if she was real, and not a scam artist, to show me how to help her.
After all, who can turn down a mothers cries that she has no food to feed her children?
no water unless they buy it by the gallon, and no way to make a livnig other than washing clothes for a little bit of food for her chilldren.
Christmas was coming, Partner went on a binge, I was with out any money, but, I prayed if she was real, for Jesus to sustain her, and give her peace in her life, and to show me how to help her, and bring the money to me to help her.
With in a couple of weeks, the idea was brought to me to buy her a sewing machine that runs with out electricity, and asked her how much it would cost for her to buy one over there.
She said, something like 4524395768304.00 Cedi....well....i laughed and thought holy cow, no way i can come up that much money....but, prayed about it anyway....
Some one left an envelope in my mail box at the church in it was 50.00 anonymously ....before christmas...
then, the church takes up a staff gift and splits it between the 9 staff members, my share was 28.00, so, i just kept praying.
and everytime i cash my pay check i always take out 10.00 for little things i mght need during the pay period, and as I break it, i drop the change in my purse...etc...
I went to Wally world to ask how much it was going to cost to send 100.00 to Ghana it was 9. 46, so, i went home, took out the 78.00 that i knew I had, and, prayed the rest would show up.
I emptied out my purse, finding a bank envelope with 10.00 , a few 1.00, then a 20.00!!!
all done I counted what I had and I had 111.00!!!!!!
I hurried back to Wally world and got the paper work to send the money over to her, and, yesterday I got word back from her
she was able to get 1 sewing machine, some material, scissors, thread and needles!!!!! and TWO WEEKS Worth of food for her boys!!!! PRAISE JESUS!!!!!
I was on cloud 9 all day, its such a rush to see a miracle work!!!!
I wanted to tell everyone....
The least excited when I told him was my minister-boss! IT made me sad, but didnt steal my excitement and praise for Jesus....
I have had so many losses 4 inaws in wreck, husband from early teen age marraige. beloved myhusband whom I loved with all my heart both parents, a grandchild, two siblings, two foster children, three businesses, my credit, and, the love of my life, and relationships, as Partner was driving me nuts, job-people are selfish, and uncaring, or, more like two faced....
and, i was doubting if Jesus was even there....
Oh my cries at night, my fears, my angers, my worries, my lack of joy, and depression, my whole world had been shattered, and dumped to the ground, nothing made sense, nothing worked, nothing was there to hold on to, except, hoping the stories of Jesus were true. I had only had them as a child,
and so many unanswered prayers the past 30 years, especially the last 10 years and even worse the last 6 years.....
I was really starting to doubt that I knew God, as I should..... was he even hearing my prayers? I didnt want to ask God why, but, What was I not learning, not paying attention to, what could I do to make things different in my life, I loved Jesus, I wanted to be more like Him, I begged him for his mercies, and asked him to show me how to love those who were hurting me, and asked him help me love my husband thru his eyes,which he dd many times, but, for what ever reason,
we just couldnt make it work...I ended up loosin mybusiness, taking in adrunk (didnt know hw ewas a drunk) I didnt understand the disease.....the drunk came in to help me with my business. We did great until 911, thngs started going down aat a fast speed.
I couldnt keep up with anything durng that time, loose after loss i was barely hanginng on for dear life..
I asked for forgiveness of al my sins, and, asked for a new start...
what a Ride!
Things are finall starting to turn around, and maybe time, I can make sense of why things have happened, and ho NOT to make the same mistakes, over and over again...
anyway, He gave me the money to get her a way of life.
It doesnt even matter to me if she wasnt real, but, I have to believe she was.
So many "men" have taken advantage of me, and I have lost so much. If I cant help another woman get on her feet, even If I havent been able to do it on my own, then, I am so glad I have been patient, but going crazy....
I have finally had my Faith Lifted ....... I haven posted for a long while...but no one seems to read ths anyway so, ill just keep writing to no one....
It has been a long month, but a productive one....
Before Christmas I had met a girl online from Ghana, a refugee from Liberia, who, (seemed strange for her to be online) but, she claimed she cleaned and did washing for some people in her village who owned a cyber cafe in the refugee camp (unlike our cyber cafe's) but set up for people to keep in touch with the world.
As the days went by her story just tore my heart out, 3 small boys, twins of her own, and one she had adopted whose parents had died, her husband had died of malaria.
I checked out the refugee camp sights online, and, started praying and asking Jesus if she was real, and not a scam artist, to show me how to help her.
After all, who can turn down a mothers cries that she has no food to feed her children?
no water unless they buy it by the gallon, and no way to make a livnig other than washing clothes for a little bit of food for her chilldren.
Christmas was coming, Partner went on a binge, I was with out any money, but, I prayed if she was real, for Jesus to sustain her, and give her peace in her life, and to show me how to help her, and bring the money to me to help her.
With in a couple of weeks, the idea was brought to me to buy her a sewing machine that runs with out electricity, and asked her how much it would cost for her to buy one over there.
She said, something like 4524395768304.00 Cedi....well....i laughed and thought holy cow, no way i can come up that much money....but, prayed about it anyway....
Some one left an envelope in my mail box at the church in it was 50.00 anonymously ....before christmas...
then, the church takes up a staff gift and splits it between the 9 staff members, my share was 28.00, so, i just kept praying.
and everytime i cash my pay check i always take out 10.00 for little things i mght need during the pay period, and as I break it, i drop the change in my purse...etc...
I went to Wally world to ask how much it was going to cost to send 100.00 to Ghana it was 9. 46, so, i went home, took out the 78.00 that i knew I had, and, prayed the rest would show up.
I emptied out my purse, finding a bank envelope with 10.00 , a few 1.00, then a 20.00!!!
all done I counted what I had and I had 111.00!!!!!!
I hurried back to Wally world and got the paper work to send the money over to her, and, yesterday I got word back from her
she was able to get 1 sewing machine, some material, scissors, thread and needles!!!!! and TWO WEEKS Worth of food for her boys!!!! PRAISE JESUS!!!!!
I was on cloud 9 all day, its such a rush to see a miracle work!!!!
I wanted to tell everyone....
The least excited when I told him was my minister-boss! IT made me sad, but didnt steal my excitement and praise for Jesus....
I have had so many losses 4 inaws in wreck, husband from early teen age marraige. beloved myhusband whom I loved with all my heart both parents, a grandchild, two siblings, two foster children, three businesses, my credit, and, the love of my life, and relationships, as Partner was driving me nuts, job-people are selfish, and uncaring, or, more like two faced....
and, i was doubting if Jesus was even there....
Oh my cries at night, my fears, my angers, my worries, my lack of joy, and depression, my whole world had been shattered, and dumped to the ground, nothing made sense, nothing worked, nothing was there to hold on to, except, hoping the stories of Jesus were true. I had only had them as a child,
and so many unanswered prayers the past 30 years, especially the last 10 years and even worse the last 6 years.....
I was really starting to doubt that I knew God, as I should..... was he even hearing my prayers? I didnt want to ask God why, but, What was I not learning, not paying attention to, what could I do to make things different in my life, I loved Jesus, I wanted to be more like Him, I begged him for his mercies, and asked him to show me how to love those who were hurting me, and asked him help me love my husband thru his eyes,which he dd many times, but, for what ever reason,
we just couldnt make it work...I ended up loosin mybusiness, taking in adrunk (didnt know hw ewas a drunk) I didnt understand the disease.....the drunk came in to help me with my business. We did great until 911, thngs started going down aat a fast speed.
I couldnt keep up with anything durng that time, loose after loss i was barely hanginng on for dear life..
I asked for forgiveness of al my sins, and, asked for a new start...
what a Ride!
Things are finall starting to turn around, and maybe time, I can make sense of why things have happened, and ho NOT to make the same mistakes, over and over again...
anyway, He gave me the money to get her a way of life.
It doesnt even matter to me if she wasnt real, but, I have to believe she was.
So many "men" have taken advantage of me, and I have lost so much. If I cant help another woman get on her feet, even If I havent been able to do it on my own, then, I am so glad I have been patient, but going crazy....
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Interesting clock
It has been almost a month since I posted, so many amazing things have happened, but, one is
a new Friend, Richard "Lee" Thank you for coming into my life!
he has some awesome pictures, check em out here... photobird.com/zoomsnap4him
Also, a new Sister in Christ, Vicki I will write about Vicki's world, soon, but for now..here is
a website of just a small part of her world....it doesn talk about the hunger, the lack of clean water, or, lack of sanitation, and bathrooms!
Vicki, God Bless you and your children!
http://www.volunteer.org.nz/ghana/refugeecamp/
http://www.globalvoicesonline.org/2005/07/22/ghana-life-in-a-liberian-refugee-camp-2/
a new Friend, Richard "Lee" Thank you for coming into my life!
he has some awesome pictures, check em out here... photobird.com/zoomsnap4him
Also, a new Sister in Christ, Vicki I will write about Vicki's world, soon, but for now..here is
a website of just a small part of her world....it doesn talk about the hunger, the lack of clean water, or, lack of sanitation, and bathrooms!
Vicki, God Bless you and your children!
http://www.volunteer.org.nz/ghana/refugeecamp/
http://www.globalvoicesonline.org/2005/07/22/ghana-life-in-a-liberian-refugee-camp-2/
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