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Thursday, January 27, 2005

battle of good over evil

It seems there is a definate battle, making one wonder if anyone else seems to notice all things work together. There are days that nothing seems to matter, everyone just moves in and out of my life but there is no notification of being here or there, just doing their own thing.

BUT, what if, there is organization to the caos?
What if we are put here for a reason, each day a piece of that reason is revealed, and we can only hope to see the whole picture after its put together? What if we are all on a Carnivale, on a ride thru life, to find the missing piece's

Does it just happen that one picks up a stranger off of the roads?
Is it just a happening that the carnivale, has a seer, has a profit, has a knower of all things.....
and the stranger is to put the pieces together?
The tree, what is with the tree.....
the "profit" preacher, notice i didnt say "Prophet" preacher says his first word he learned in English Bible was GARDEN.....
he has the tree tattooed on his body , the tree Ben sees in his dreams, in his life, in his wonderings.....
His radio message reaches more in a second than all of Jesus Christ in his whole life time
What is his message?
His thoughts about salt, is it a curse from above? Salt comes down our faces in labor as sweat
Salt is a leach which sucks out the land, or, Salt is something to season our foods, white and pure, does it increase our vision of GOD?

Is this preacher cursed, or blessed?
As the old preacher who raised him and his sister watched in paralized wonder, the profit preacher, sins in front of his paralized father. He had a stroke from earlier on while trying to speak out the words that he felt the preacher is possessed.
Why does he feel this guy is possessed? How does he see the darkness in his soul?
As the old preacher sits in his chair, and watches, the profit preacher, looks to see if he is being watched, then, continues to spill his milk, and, brings the maid in to clean up the mess, and asks if her mother taught her how to pray, as he puts her head into his crotch............
She is the willing worker wanting to make her master happy.....
Has everything we have been taught about good and evil, in front of us or blurred visions
God Talked to Adam, Adam didnt understand how to communicate with his GOD?
Was woman the go between?
Has woman been disrespected because she wished to love her GOD, and Worship her God, and communicate, and dance with GOD?
As we go thru life, there are those around us who give and take, we give and take, if it is done as a dance between two people it is communication, if we jolt, and revolt, it is caos....
As we see those around us who have sinned, or led lives we judge to be not normal in our own standards, does it make them bad, sinners? Dont we all do what we have to do to survive?
Are there not times when we walk on the dark side to get to the lighted highways?
As a man pulls Ben out of his truck telling him he has something to show him, Ben gets out and sees his abnormal daughter standing at the truck, the old man tells Ben, she is retarded and wont tell anyone, $2.00 take her on the back of the truck, she is good and tight.....
Ben is in discust, but, sees the need in the old man to sell his daughter for what little money he can get for them to survive..... Ben holds the old mans head, wants to spit in his face, but, instead turns to love and understanding and tells him to not do it anymore, the old man in repentance cries, I wont.....I wont do it anymore....and leaves....





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