Here it is, the Rollin Rib Cage, our dream.

Our first baby died when the Outlet Mall Management killed it with their poor management.....taking our "dream, our baby" down with it.
It has been 3 years since we closed our doors and much depression, and sickness, heart ache, and craziness, but, we are back on track
and gonna do it

we have to, this is my last hope....

Clear the way, The Loose Caboose, Rollin Rib Cage, Smokin BBQ
in back on track!

Coming thru....

Finally some decent info

finally some decent information!
are you ready to come out of the closet?

Mother

When I was small you were there to tell me to stand tall
As I grew you asked me to stay small

As life went on we separated our paths
I wish I could go back and say
Thank you for all you gave to me
Those days are gone
as the shadows grow dim
life is shorter than I expected
One day, you were gone
Now, I wish, I could say so many things
When you left, I had so many regrets
Life is so short, there never was enough time
to do the things you wanted, I always had to run.

Mother Forgive me for not being there on that day
that you so gleefully went walking
to the light and then left daddy and me.

Its been 10 years since the day you left us, last night I had a dream of all the pain I have had since you have passed
and, how much I have missed you but was never able to tell you.
Mother I wish, I would have loved you more
I wish I would have given you more of me
I wish I wouldn't have resented your over powering hold, the over protectiveness you held over me
I wish I could talk to you about my biomother, the one who gave me to you
So many questions, and now, no one to ever give the answers.
Mommy, I miss you
I wish I could go back
I wish I could be that little girl you wanted so badly, but I never wanted to be
I can only imagine, you wanting a baby so badly
You gave me the best you knew how, but, never understood what I needed, not the material stuff, but the inner relationship between mother and child, the bonding, the touching, the discipline...

I rebelled and ran from you, not sharing my feelings and tears
Knowing you would only want to fix it, and not be able to do so
Oh mother, as I grew and you knew I was leaving
your hold started to let go

We never became friends, and now, I resent that I never got to know you

I am sorry mother, I wish I could go back, and do things differently
but, as they say, we cannot go back and fix, only live forward and do.

As my own daughter rejects me, as I have rejected you, she too has passed on the seed to her daughter, my own granddaughter who really doesn't accept me.

I can only live in today, and find the little things to be thankful for
and not live in sef-pity

I wish I could bring you some flowers today, and tell you Happy Mothers day and give you a kiss, and just sit and talk....I miss you mother....

I am sorry
I am sorry
I am SORRY
Please forgive me

mothers of mankind

taking on more responsibility so he doesn't have to
the women need the time alone to get it sorted thru
men don't want to think aobut the everafter
the before and behind of things
we must stand united
where R U mothers of mankind....

the men took the lead in the walk out of the desert
now it is time for the woman to walk back into the garden

nothing like a strole thru the park with the one you love
tell me have you felt the love of the soul
seen thru the portal of the heart
into the eyes

falling into love with the one
who would touch the golden spot of
desire
doors are closed unable to visit that spot
to make love thru the night

I have runaway, oh my love to runaway with you
to fall into the deep abyss of blyss
to fall inlove and know the soul has been touched
to know that the spirit has been brought alive
and given the lust for life
to be rebirthed into the air of golden sunlight
clouds of white feathers lightening the way into the path of
enlightenment
how to live the life which is poured out before us but yet
hidden to those who are dead and blind
oh to taste and know it is good
oh to love and know it is real
oh to desire and know the way

As I was given the day
the darkness brought out the light
a spark like a diamond in the dark
that led me to the holy night

to go back, to know the way forward
the circle of life beyond the belief of
existence
we know not what we are speaking
when we have lost our way
the spirit is lost, and no way back
no guide to find the way
only little hints along the way
has my mind been able to make contact with
but yet the days are empty with out one bit of sight
oh my God in front of me give me a climbse
they speak not of you in the chambers of their religions
I ask for the one word I can recognize but no voice is heard


I know in my heart you are there
I know I must find you
but where....

Imagine a world with out .....

Years ago there was a song which asked us to imagine a world with out heaven

sitting here at home, being eaten away with pain, anger, i had a choice
i could move forward or live in the past
but I have to forgive self
no one can survive unless the man at the top finds a way to forgive himself...

I just don't know what I'm asking forgiveness for

lossing ones self....not knowing who or where i have been other than lost...

needing reason to get married, life was empty
marriage was going to full fill that emptiness
but....it didn't....
I wasnt ready for marriage, I had not tasted the world, to know what I wanted.
BUT, I had dated a couple of guys, i fended them off all the while wanting to give in so badly...but
good girls dont give in....dont have sex out side of marriage....
do they?

my life has been so screwed up

Vicki and new machine

This is my sister in Christ, Vicki, she is a refugee from Liberia, in Ghana. She and her three boys have been through a lot and, hopefully, now, with her new machine, God provided for her, she will be able to make a decent living for her children and her self.
I pray this will help you ....

in Jesus Name...

My dear Sister in Christ Vicki

Back in January, I was blessed with meeting up a dear girl in a refugee camp, trying desperatly to get on her feet, after such horrible things in Liberia, she made it to Ghana with her twins, and, another boy she adopted along the way, whose parents had died.

I wanted desperatly to help her, but had no money, I prayed about her, and with in weeks, the idea of helping her get a sewing machine which doesnt require electricity came to my heart.
I received 50.00 for christmas, and, then with saving from waisting money on things I didnt need, I was able to purchase her sewing machine.
Here she is with her three boys, and the new machine.
I am so excited for her, now, she must learn to sew :)

March 9, her small son Emmanuel, is now sick with typhoid.
Please pray for him! and her....